All BS aside. Are you happy?

mikey, post away !! i will fly uro out their to staple them back on ...

 

Suprising, you've seem to accomplish so much so far...I used to listen to your stuff all the time and think, this guy has some talent.

Let me know if you wanna switch places!

 

I could use a beer and a woman, but yeah, I'm cool.

 

tombileguy; any way we can help? Don't let those ****ers get you down, that's just their game, to make you sick with worry. You can't let them win, take the energy and get ANGRY, take it out on them and not yourself!!!

 

Now you see, key to happiness right there! I love it when it foams over the boobs.

 

I yearn, but I'm not desperate, because, dammit, I have a bad case of scruples!

Creatively - Frustrated. Writer's block.
Emotionally - Calm... too calm. Gone is the fury of a patient man.
Financially - Dissatisfied - it's those darn scruples! I've got principles & my heart has to be in it to "upgrade" - passed up an "opportunity" today, in fact - the right bait on the right hook, though...
Materially - Complacent, yet yearning - accumulation of wealth has to be on my terms, though who doesn't like a windfall?
Sexually - Aroused, sated. Rinse and repeat.
Spiritually - What? Me worry?

To quote a real, live uh, poverty-stricken character (whom I'd be surprised was still alive) I spoke with 3 times... and who stated on all 3 occasions:

"I ain't got much, but I'm happy!"

 

NO!!! Not happy on many levels, seriously nothing makes me happy at the moment....Kinda feel like everything is falling apart around me and I can't do anything to change it

 

You seem like your pretty successful.....

Me, I'm content...Am getting happier though, with college nearing the end and ready to leave childhood and enter adulthood, and my medical situation is getting better (phase three/four will occur at Christmas time). I sometimes wonder if I'm lonely, but I also realize I'm only 21. I'm not looking to get "hitched" until I hit at the min. of around 30 or so.

 

Everyone tells me how lucky I am for one reason or another but that is from the outside looking in...Kicker is I dont do drugs or drink. Everyone around me seems to either drink daily, screw anything in site, or live on drugs....I think I need a career change to be around a better class of people. My gf is a playmate and very unhappy with her job so when her contract is up we might move somewhere and start all over together.....Believe me that when you see people on TV 99% of them are not as happy as they appear.

 

deep down, im happy.

some things make me unhappy. im seriously one of maybe 5 kids my age relatively close to me (relationships not distance) that i know that doesnt drink or smoke or phuck anything that walks. many of my friends and aquaintances do at least 1 of the 3 if not more. its so hard because everyone (many people) look down on me for not being "cool" and choosing "the right thing," which these days is more of an insult than a complement if anyone understands that. also, my family has been victim to quite a few very hostile grudges, one of which could have (and in all honesty, should have (as in the pull of a trigger that didnt happen)) gotten us killed, but God was definitely watching out for us. that single memory, seeing the woman with a gun in her hand, is one that will never leave me.

despite the cons, the pros in my life are much stronger. i have a loving and supporting family who provide me with everything i need, i go to a good high school that will definitwly help me get into a good college, i live in southern california so i can see lots of nice cars, and my dad has a Gallardo. but seriously, the past 2 parts dont mean jack schitt. my family and i are very fortunate; my mom and sister have each cheated death (besides the one mentioned) and are very lucky to be here with me. i have some of the best friends anyone could ask for. i met them all this past summer and we were able to hang ot for only 3 weeks, but somehow i bonded with 3 of them like i never have before. i know id take a bullet for them in a heartbeat, and i know theyd all do the same for me. the only thing is that of the 4 of us, i am the only kid that doesnt live on the east coast. and im out in san diego.

basically i count my lucky stars that i am who i am and i have had the fortune and good will of others to keep me up, and that i have had the experiences ive had as they have taught me so much about life.

so yes, im happy

 

I'm not sure if I'm happy.

I have a long road ahead of me, but at least I know exactly what I have to do to get there. I know once I'm there I'll be content. (Yeah, right! Right?)

Great family...
Friends... Can't depend on them like I used to
No companion
Financial... Not worried at all. I know where I'm headed.
I'm healthy. I've lost weight, got more to go, but I have a new lifestyle and I know that I just saved 10-20 years by completely making this switch now... sooner than later.

Some may say I'm happy, but I don't feel like I am. If someone told me I had nowhere to go from here and I would just have to live my life this way I would hate it. Opportunity keeps me in the game.

 

Not really.

 

Working on it. Im more excited than im happy.

 

tmobileguy,
Is there a thread that you've shared your story on? I'm sure its very personal, and you don't want to get into details, I guess I am just curious. I wish you all the best and as stated before, don't ever give up, thats just what they want you to do.

 

Thanks Mike. It is fascinating to see how different these two kids are. They look so much alike yet they are so different. When you have children you suddenly realize how selfish you have been all your life. Suddenly taking care of number 1 is way down in 27th place. Doing your best for your kids is second only to your spouse and marriage.

My Dad had the same attitude as you do. I highly recommend it.
He was a partner in an independent insurance agency. He never pressured me to come in to the business. He let me pursue my passion which is engineering. It was for the best. I would have made a lousy sales person. When I was about 25 he sold the agency and retired.

Enjoy that new child, focus on family and remember..... Its all good.

Erich

 

overall, yeah but '05 hasn't been a particularly good year for me...

 

Mike, just picked this thread up. Keep the faith. Work AND family can coexist. It'll just take some time. Remember, it is always darkest before the dawn.

Best.

 

...and a bulb burns brightest before it goes out...

...and the light at the end of the tunnel is a fast approaching train....

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

 

Nope, I hate life, and I'm tired of living already.

 

All BS aside, let's see:
- family, lack of communications, mother not doing well in the hospital again.
- job is draining me now but I do not want to go into that on a public forum.
- finances are not yet optimal, but I'm working on it.
- instructed at the track this past weekend and had a wonderful time.
- playing in a band currently and just finished our photoshoot, will be playing again in the next few weeks to find a regular gig.
- I did find 'the one', even took her to the track, thanksgiving with each others' families will be next, and we're doing very well.

Yes, I'm happy.