Don’t feel guilty for what you have built; feel fortunate for having the internal drive to overcome some really lousy parenting. Despite them you succeeded. Now be the opposite of them. Don’t buy a Huracan unless you really really want it, not that you “are in a position” to buy it...you do not need wealth display. Donate time at a youth center with kids who are dealing with the same **** you dealt with, mentor them, then you won’t have any more guilty feelings.