You've GOT to keep telling yourself that a) Nobody on earth could have given her a better life than we did. b) You had NO choice other than to put her down, she was suffering and to keep her alive would have been cruel. It's hard as hell, but remember that she is no longer in pain. I hope you & Mrs. RMX feel better soon.
BTDT... Tears in my eyes as I remember and miss the dogs that we have had the pleasure to be caretaker of and miss much to this day! RIP Onyx, Ashli, Amani, and Spot are waiting for you at Rainbow's Bridge... James